You stand so strong by me
Your love overflows for me
You are always concerned about me
And still all I do is hurt you.
You always wish to be by me
You would do anything for me
You always talk good about me
And still all I do is hurt you.
You have changed you and me
You have made me and you into us
You now always do what is best for us
And still all I do is hurt you.
I made you sad,
I made you cry,
I didn't give you a chance even when you said you'll try
I spoke and spoke
And you listened through
All the time while I was stabbing you.
I felt the pain
And the tears from you
But, I couldn't stop
Even though I was hurting you.
I'm sorry my love
But, know this is true
That I truly love you and only you!
- Sweetness
Showing posts with label For Hoopoe. Show all posts
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Sunday, March 21, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
Unsure Moments (Letters to each other)
We would like to share with you the letters that we exchanged on 23rd May, 2006, just three days after we met each other for the first time in person. Ofcourse, we had used our actual names in the letter, however, for sake of anonymity and our personal level of comfort, we have changed the names while posting in the blog.
This was what I wrote to Hoopoe:
Dear Hoopoe,
Don't know how to start off, but there is something that is disturbing me real badly, and I guess you need to know about it.
I kept discouraging you all the time before we met, saying that, when you meet me, you will realize the condition that I am in. But, I guess nothing changed, and I admire you for it.
Hoopoe, you know the way I think and feel. You know that I have never felt love for any guy before. It maybe so, cause I have created a mental block in my head that I can't fall in love or get attached to a person, unless I get well.
You say that I speak endlessly to you and that is one of the sign of having a crush... Well, I can't contradict you, cause I am really unaware of that feeling. But, as per me, it’s the joy of having a wonderful friend whom I can speak to just about anything and that makes me really happy.
I know we both are not committed to each other and definitely have the freedom to go our own way, but I am aware about your feelings, especially, since you have made them known to me. But, I do wish that you keep them in check and, do not let them intensify further because, we do not know what the future holds for us. We have known each other for just a month. So, it will be much easier to curb these feelings right now.
I know that this mail will hurt you real bad. However, the past two days, I am feeling very guilty, I feel I am encouraging you wrongly and I don't know how, so I finally decided to write a mail to you and let you know. I am very very sorry if I have hurt you, but, I needed you to know how I feel.
I promise to be your good friend forever, just the way we are, but, I can't assure you more than that... I have literally spent sleepless nights, and I felt it's time I tell you.
Take care dear...
Love,
Sweetness
The following was Hoopoe’s reply to me:
Dearest Sweetness,
I felt very nice that you were open about your thoughts. Well, I got to say a few things too darling, hope you understand it, else, I’ll talk to you about it...
1. I really like your concern towards me and my feelings, you are so un-selfish, I’m touched that you were only concerned about my feelings, not even giving a thought about yours..
2. Dear, the mail in no way has hurt me, but reinforced my respect towards you. I like you; because you are very honest, and the one and only way that you can hurt me is by lying.
3. Darling, was it because I hugged you that you felt guilty of encouraging me? Please don’t think that way. I had a feeling that you were my doll.
4. I very well know that you will not commit to anyone till your health improves. I too not ready to commit to any one for another 2 years.
5. I will be your best friend forever; will never go beyond that atleast for the time being. What the future holds for us is for God to decide. We have time on our hands, let’s see what it does to our bonding, let it be time tested too.
6. Well darling, you don’t forget that you too are a human being, a girl. You too have ambitions, future visions, desires, goals etc. and you have been suppressing it for very long. Well, I really wish you don’t do that..
7. You are a girl with a golden heart, a very rare find indeed. It’s just not possible not to love someone like you. So for now please sleep well. Don’t worry about anything for a few more years, and, if things are good; in time to come, I’ll kidnap and marry you. Well, if I cant do tat, I’ll always be there for you, as your best friend like I am now.
8. Well, before I end, I'm here all ears for you. My mind totally belongs to you sweetheart and all my thoughts are yours because I’m sure, I can’t find a person more trustworthy than you.
Bye darling
Love you always
Hoopoe
This was what I wrote to Hoopoe:
Dear Hoopoe,
Don't know how to start off, but there is something that is disturbing me real badly, and I guess you need to know about it.
I kept discouraging you all the time before we met, saying that, when you meet me, you will realize the condition that I am in. But, I guess nothing changed, and I admire you for it.
Hoopoe, you know the way I think and feel. You know that I have never felt love for any guy before. It maybe so, cause I have created a mental block in my head that I can't fall in love or get attached to a person, unless I get well.
You say that I speak endlessly to you and that is one of the sign of having a crush... Well, I can't contradict you, cause I am really unaware of that feeling. But, as per me, it’s the joy of having a wonderful friend whom I can speak to just about anything and that makes me really happy.
I know we both are not committed to each other and definitely have the freedom to go our own way, but I am aware about your feelings, especially, since you have made them known to me. But, I do wish that you keep them in check and, do not let them intensify further because, we do not know what the future holds for us. We have known each other for just a month. So, it will be much easier to curb these feelings right now.
I know that this mail will hurt you real bad. However, the past two days, I am feeling very guilty, I feel I am encouraging you wrongly and I don't know how, so I finally decided to write a mail to you and let you know. I am very very sorry if I have hurt you, but, I needed you to know how I feel.
I promise to be your good friend forever, just the way we are, but, I can't assure you more than that... I have literally spent sleepless nights, and I felt it's time I tell you.
Take care dear...
Love,
Sweetness
The following was Hoopoe’s reply to me:
Dearest Sweetness,
I felt very nice that you were open about your thoughts. Well, I got to say a few things too darling, hope you understand it, else, I’ll talk to you about it...
1. I really like your concern towards me and my feelings, you are so un-selfish, I’m touched that you were only concerned about my feelings, not even giving a thought about yours..
2. Dear, the mail in no way has hurt me, but reinforced my respect towards you. I like you; because you are very honest, and the one and only way that you can hurt me is by lying.
3. Darling, was it because I hugged you that you felt guilty of encouraging me? Please don’t think that way. I had a feeling that you were my doll.
4. I very well know that you will not commit to anyone till your health improves. I too not ready to commit to any one for another 2 years.
5. I will be your best friend forever; will never go beyond that atleast for the time being. What the future holds for us is for God to decide. We have time on our hands, let’s see what it does to our bonding, let it be time tested too.
6. Well darling, you don’t forget that you too are a human being, a girl. You too have ambitions, future visions, desires, goals etc. and you have been suppressing it for very long. Well, I really wish you don’t do that..
7. You are a girl with a golden heart, a very rare find indeed. It’s just not possible not to love someone like you. So for now please sleep well. Don’t worry about anything for a few more years, and, if things are good; in time to come, I’ll kidnap and marry you. Well, if I cant do tat, I’ll always be there for you, as your best friend like I am now.
8. Well, before I end, I'm here all ears for you. My mind totally belongs to you sweetheart and all my thoughts are yours because I’m sure, I can’t find a person more trustworthy than you.
Bye darling
Love you always
Hoopoe
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Valentine's day
The long awaited day has arrived,
Week long preparations to make you feel loved and special.
Not the way I hoped for it to be,
But, my humble attempt at doing the best that I can!
It would be a dream to stay awake with you till the midnight hour,
Welcoming the day while we are basking in our love, in our own tower,
However, both of us need to sleep,
As our bodies have a different love language to keep!
I wait for the day when I will wake up with a kiss, at dawn
And see the sky brighten up as I laze in your arms on the lawn,
Hear the birds sing as I look into your eyes,
And hear your heartbeat when my heart wishes to cry!
Ohh!! My desires are soooo many!!
Love, tell me when will they come to pass?
These simple joys that make life pleasurable,
I yearn for them my darling, at all times desirable!
I pray that Jesus answer's our prayer!
Let this Valentine day mark that special love,
Which we have cherished with the greatest regard,
As we continue making it grow for eternity,
Let our love be our final Destiny!
- Sweetness
Week long preparations to make you feel loved and special.
Not the way I hoped for it to be,
But, my humble attempt at doing the best that I can!
It would be a dream to stay awake with you till the midnight hour,
Welcoming the day while we are basking in our love, in our own tower,
However, both of us need to sleep,
As our bodies have a different love language to keep!
I wait for the day when I will wake up with a kiss, at dawn
And see the sky brighten up as I laze in your arms on the lawn,
Hear the birds sing as I look into your eyes,
And hear your heartbeat when my heart wishes to cry!
Ohh!! My desires are soooo many!!
Love, tell me when will they come to pass?
These simple joys that make life pleasurable,
I yearn for them my darling, at all times desirable!
I pray that Jesus answer's our prayer!
Let this Valentine day mark that special love,
Which we have cherished with the greatest regard,
As we continue making it grow for eternity,
Let our love be our final Destiny!
- Sweetness
Friday, February 12, 2010
Valentine Special!
Fourteenth February is Valentine's day, so they say!
A universal day when love is celebrated the world over.
A day, on which most wish to spend time with their special someone!
True! For us, every day is Valentine's day!
However, it's been four years, and not one of these universal days, we were together!
Let this year be different...
When the earth spins around with love floating around the globe,
Let us celebrate our love for each other!
How do I make this day special for you, I think?!
You asked for a card and a cake
Both of which, I plan to make....
But, what can I say or do to make you feel YOU?!
.
.
.
.
.
Love, expressed through words is the best I can do!
My Hoopoe, my Gundu, I love you,
Because you are simply you!
Your twinkling eyes, your infinite watt' ed smile,
Speaks tons about your heart that beats within me.
My darling, I miss you, yet, I feel your presence too!
I miss your touch, your teddy bear hug,
The grasp of your hand,
And the love pouring out from your eyes!
I always wish to listen and speak to your heart the way I do,
When you are away, let the moon always reflect you
And ofcourse, let Jesus always be an integral part of our love!
Waiting to spend these special moments with you my love!
Want to drown in your eyes and experience the stillness and calm of life!
I love you my darling...
You are mine for eternity...
- Sweetness
A universal day when love is celebrated the world over.
A day, on which most wish to spend time with their special someone!
True! For us, every day is Valentine's day!
However, it's been four years, and not one of these universal days, we were together!
Let this year be different...
When the earth spins around with love floating around the globe,
Let us celebrate our love for each other!
How do I make this day special for you, I think?!
You asked for a card and a cake
Both of which, I plan to make....
But, what can I say or do to make you feel YOU?!
.
.
.
.
.
Love, expressed through words is the best I can do!
My Hoopoe, my Gundu, I love you,
Because you are simply you!
Your twinkling eyes, your infinite watt' ed smile,
Speaks tons about your heart that beats within me.
My darling, I miss you, yet, I feel your presence too!
I miss your touch, your teddy bear hug,
The grasp of your hand,
And the love pouring out from your eyes!
I always wish to listen and speak to your heart the way I do,
When you are away, let the moon always reflect you
And ofcourse, let Jesus always be an integral part of our love!
Waiting to spend these special moments with you my love!
Want to drown in your eyes and experience the stillness and calm of life!
I love you my darling...
You are mine for eternity...
- Sweetness
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Things that money cannot buy
Valentines Day is approaching and I can feel that Sweetness is cooking something special for me. It’s difficult for Sweetness to cook, infact it’s extremely taxing for her, but she still does it for me. When I ask her how she manages the pain, all she says is “Love.” It’s now dawned upon me that love is the best analgesic and I learnt it from my beloved.
Sweetness asked me, what I want for Valentines Day and I said “I want a card”. Now the cards of Sweetness are special because she does not believe in buying cards for me, she always makes them on her own. From the time we first met, to this day, every card I received from her is hand made by her and that makes it more valuable than anything money could ever buy. These cards are so precious to me, that I carry them wherever I go and that is why, even now, although I am not at home, I still have got them and have decided to post photographs of some of them. I’m anxious to know, how my Valentines Day card will look like, but I know it will be much better than what I can even imagine. One reason is the warmth of the words that she puts in, it makes me feel so special and so loved that I feel totally humbled by them.
I am one lazy Hoopoe, other than making a few animations during our initial courtship day’s, I have not made anything for her, but rather resorted to buy over the counter gifts. Will this year be different? After all this is our first Valentines Day since we met, four years ago. I am excited to just be with her and I hope my creative juices really flow before the 14th to make her day really special.
I Love you Sweetness
-Hoopoe
Sweetness asked me, what I want for Valentines Day and I said “I want a card”. Now the cards of Sweetness are special because she does not believe in buying cards for me, she always makes them on her own. From the time we first met, to this day, every card I received from her is hand made by her and that makes it more valuable than anything money could ever buy. These cards are so precious to me, that I carry them wherever I go and that is why, even now, although I am not at home, I still have got them and have decided to post photographs of some of them. I’m anxious to know, how my Valentines Day card will look like, but I know it will be much better than what I can even imagine. One reason is the warmth of the words that she puts in, it makes me feel so special and so loved that I feel totally humbled by them.
I am one lazy Hoopoe, other than making a few animations during our initial courtship day’s, I have not made anything for her, but rather resorted to buy over the counter gifts. Will this year be different? After all this is our first Valentines Day since we met, four years ago. I am excited to just be with her and I hope my creative juices really flow before the 14th to make her day really special.
I Love you Sweetness
-Hoopoe
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